I don’t know how I feel about 2014 because all I remember were the many weeks of crammed schedules. That’s when I realised that being an adult really isn’t all that fun, hey?
From finally graduating in October after 5 (or was it 6?) gruelling years to losing one of the most influential women in my 23 years of life, the only way to describe my year in two words: emotional rollercoaster.
In the beginning of this year I was STILL dealing with my boyfriend’s relentlessly narcissistic ex but I eventually learned to separate her criticism from my sense of self (you know, the whole ‘what doesn’t kill you, makes you stronger’ thing). I also learned that crazy ex ‘girlfriends’ were a real thing and that narcissism makes people do really stupid things to people they don’t even know.
Then came one June afternoon, when we got a call from grandma’s nursing home to notify us that she was admitted into hospital earlier that day. I learned more about life during those difficult 14+ days that she laid in palliative care. Those two weeks were a stark reminder of the importance in cherishing the people around me.
Losing grandma was a pretty shitty experience, but it wasn’t completely bad… I guess. In her final few days, through a morphine haze she reassured us that she was ready to go. Knowing that somewhat tamed my own personal fear of non-existence.
And then October came, and I finally graduated from university after what seemed like forever. It was definitely a proud moment of mine but my parents were the ones who were really winning. After all, I’m the one left with a HECS debt for two pieces of paper that I still don’t know how to justify the value for!
Chris and I also crossed that 2 year mark as a couple! I remember back in high school, people would celebrate their relationships in random milestones (e.g. 100 days, x month(s), etc) and I never really gave a shit. I still don’t really give a shit. I actually prefer to celebrate these ‘anniversaries’ in a low key manner, heck, I prefer not to celebrate at all? LOL.
But anyway, I honestly can’t remember what else happened this year so I’m just going to leave it at this.