On Friday, as I bid farewell to the people I had spent the past 9-10 months with, my eyes welled up with tears that I couldn’t explain. Stupid emotions! It would be nice to be more in control of my emotions, but I guess sometimes it’s better to just let it all out.
All I could do to stop myself from bawling my eyes out was to remind myself that it’s just another chapter of life that I get to carry with me until the end of time. You know, how it all goes… “with every ending, there is a beginning”, right?
It was my first 9-to-5 job since graduating, so I really didn’t know what to expect.
A colleague announced that she was going to have an early mark, so having handed my swipey pass back to my manager I thought I’d go with her so I could just leave through the turnstiles of the building behind her. That was when I went around the department to say my final goodbyes.
The tears didn’t start until I got past the design team and onto the girls in the next section of our department. It was fairly strange that that’s when I started bawling because I never really talked to them, but saying goodbye to people you’ve seen day in, day out is still difficult nonetheless.
Leaving this job was definitely a lot like leaving a relationship. It may not have been all fun and games but saying goodbye to people you’ve made memories with is always going to be difficult. I think the prospect of never seeing them again was what brought me to tears.
I remember proclaiming that “I hate goodbyes!”, and that was when another colleague from the design studio said to me in a matter-of-factly tone that “it’s not goodbye, it’s see you later”.
So fingers crossed that I will eventually cross paths with them again some time down the track. And if I don’t, then I will still have these memories to go back and reflect upon.